HIMYM in action

In season 5 episode 21 of How I Met Your Mother, Ted shows us he keeps a bunch of letters he writes to himself in case he ever starts thinking of his past love interests.

"The Letter" system by Ted Mosby - write a letter to your future self to remind yourself why you should not get back together with an EX, or not fall for the same person, etc.

I've been thinking about it and I have to do the same. I still retain a ton of feelings for my first unrequited love and I need to jot down all the reasons why I should not fall into the same pitfall again. Thank you Ted Mosby (and HIMYM), for showing me the way!

unmotivated right now

Okay things are going downhill this summer. Not only does my current "job" suck, but my only source of entertainment is also dismantled now.

The Job:

Currently I am "interning" at MetLife. At first I got the job and thought I landed the jackpot. I didn't ask about the pay or anything because I didn't want to seem like money was all I cared about (on the first interview). However, I should have suspected something was wrong because the guy simply handed the job to me. He didn't ask me any questions on a normal interview, he simply told me the job description and asked for my availability. So what do I do these days? When I applied, it was supposed to be "analyze financial asset models" and other wordy descriptions. However, all I do is make cold calls. That's right, I'm a free telemarketer and my time and work is so meaningless, I receive no recognition and no money for it.

I hate my work because 99% of these calls are failures. About half of them go straight voicemail, a third of the phone lines are busy, and the rest are the rejections I receive. I've made some successful calls, but have I received any compensation for it? Nope. Where is my commission? Is my time really that meaningless? I'm not even properly registered onto the system and no one knows of my existence. Is this right? Why am I still there?


ME time (My Enjoyment)

The only things I look forward to each week, are two things. First, playing Heroes Of Newerth with my friends. Second, our weekly volleyball events on the weekend. Sure job sucks, but when I come home or when it's the weekend, I can at least enjoy myself and take a load of stress off. What's changed?

As a killer team of five players, our HoN team is entered into several tournaments. We've been on a roll and we have a very good streak going. One of the tournaments I feel we can make the finals. However, just when everything is looking smoothly, one of the five of us decides to go EMO on us and quit the game. For no reason. Not even a reason as to why he quit. This guy won't pick up the phone, won't respond to IMs, nothing. All of my hopes and ambition goes straight down the drain because the team is nothing unless we have all five of us. This absolutely is killing me.

Second, what happened to our weekly volleyball events at Central Park? I have no idea what's going on, but people aren't going anymore. Maybe I'm an extremely habitual guy and doesn't like the idea of change. I looked forward to meeting up with my friends every week and play some games at Central Park. Nowadays, whenever someone creates an event, hardly anyone responds. People always ask, who's going? Well maybe if you show up and then others will as well. But the thing is, no one is going anymore and it's a chain effect. Sadly, this is killing me as well. What is there to look forward to now?

Group Interview

Today I had my first group interview. I got the interview through the Weissman Center. There was a total of nine of us, including me. It was a big Baruch fest, with one guy from Fordham. I've never been on a group interview before, so before the interview I looked online on what to expect. All I can say is, you have to make a good lasting impression and stand out in a good way.

There were a lot of different personalities amongst the group. Let's see who they are:

1. The I ALWAYS ANSWER FIRST guy: this speaks for itself, this guy was the first to answer every question the interviewer asked us. This displayed his self confidence, his quickness on his feet, as well as his arrogance.

2. The I DID MY HOMEWORK guy: this guy did his homework and tries to refer back to his knowledge of the company whenever possible. All of his questions relates back to how the company is performing and includes facts and figures from the news. I dislike this guy because he seems very superficial and a suck up.

3. The I SOCIALIZE WITH EVERYONE guy: the guy who spoke to everyone and did the icebreaking, as well as trying to invoke responses from people. This guy tries to be the chill guy and tries to be the center of attention as well. Another type of suck up.

4. The FOREIGNER guy: the typical story of how this guy recently came to the US, is self motivated, pays for college and works at the same time, and pretty much amazing all around. The AMERICAN dream as you can call it.

5. The STUTTERING guy: this guy is obviously a nervous wreck and lacks both self confidence and experience. His voice was cracking up whenever it was his turn to answer and although he claimed to be an honors student with an excellent GPA, he's one of those bookworms that's never been out of the house.

And then there's me. What I did was try to relate everything to my current "job" and answered most of the questions using my experience with MetLife. I tried to stand out in my answers, but I don't think I made a strong enough impression. There were two people who I felt were more qualified than I was at the group interview. Oh well. Oh yeah, it was at UBS Financial.